Today is day 1 of "Thanksgiving Break." That means each day, in order to be in a space that I can give freely to my readers, I need to be sure that my kiddos are in a space where they are engaged.
You'd think that living in a big city like Dallas, there would be things that would "engage" them, and perhaps there are things out there that I don't know about, but the 2 really are hard to please...hahahahah.
What I mean, is that one is 7, so he's into certain things, and the other is 11, and she's into other things. We don't have friends close enough to be able to walk to their homes, and I am particular with dropping them somewhere for hours that I don't feel comfortable with.
So today, the boy is at Ninja Camp, and the girl got up late and has decided she wants to go bday shopping for her brother, and is looking forward to some mommy time, along with some Starbucks.
I'm thankful that both of them are having their needs met, along with me having my needs met. It's perfect when that happens.
Now, what's frustrating is if I am in a mindset that I won't start on anything if I know I'm going to be "interrupted." Perhaps is a pain point from some trauma suffered long ago, or perhaps it's some sort of procrastination, but my "inner me" really hates (I don't like to use that word, but it's pretty accurate) to start something knowing that I'll be interrupted.
I've tried reasoning with myself over this fear. But fears really aren't into reason, are they.
Over time, I've learned that there is no such thing as perfection. That I can give my best that I can at the moment and that that is good enough. I've learned that done is better than perfect, and that what I think of as trash that I create, most people really love. (We're so hard on ourselves)
So why does it still bother me? I have no clue. But I do know, that because I'm learning to enjoy every moment, to have gratitude in everything, that at this second, I'm flourishing in typing my thoughts to you. It might not be here typing in 10 minutes. But that I'll be ok, either way.
Ultimately, I'm not in control. And I'm learning to be ok with that.
If one person can relate to my time shared here, then I have done a great work....imperfect, maybe too many commas, but here I am for you, just the way I am, excited to support you, just the way you are!
So, do what you can with what you have. Do it in a spirit of love. Do it the way you're supposed to based on the gifts the Lord has given you. But do it. Be obedient. And the blessing of peace will flood your soul.
Until tomorrow!
Jennifer
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"But how can my back hurt? I do yoga daily?! Until you realize it's been 1 week since you did any exercise because your schedule has been different....unforeseen events mixing your calendar up every which way.
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